surfing dreams, living life.

what's up. blogging from my phone at work.

life's awesome. wife perfect. baby on the way. christmas in 16 days. next month will be a brand new year.

staying in a new place now. selling off my kl property. bought a land. planning to get a landed property in penampang once kl condo sold.

and did i say a baby's coming? jyeahhh boyhhh. excited and scared at the same time.

started investing in stocks and futures damn tough. won okay in the first week. with greece, italy, ireland and spain in debt, market dived down today. held last nite and paying the price now. not worried much. learned a lot from this mistake.

anyways, it's a baby boy!

love life peeps :)

merry christmas and a happy happy new year!

Friends vs Family

So like I am getting married next Saturday.

I am super stressed out. Especially in terms of financial matters. I have so much to pay off, with the new apartment, renovation, study loans et cetera.

So last Wednesday, stress was so bad I did something I wouldn't usually do. I asked to borrow money.

I first called my mom, negative. I think nowadays she'd rather be spending money on making other people happy ie. her sisters and their children. I was sad but I know I can't do much. Told her I'd find some other sources. She just kept quiet. Not even offering other options. Yes, that's my mom.

Texted 3 close cousins. Told them I'd pay them back as soon as the wedding's over. BTW, these are close cousins who I have personally helped a lot, financially and effortlessly. They all said they cannot. Didn't even try to squeeze a couple of hundred of bucks. Well, maybe one did.

Finally, I texted a high-school friend. We do not meet that often but as soon as he got my text, his immediate reply was "When do you need it? Gimme your bank account number". NO FUCKING QUESTIONS ASKED. He's not rich, mind you. Just had a baby himself. Immediately I broke down and cried. In the office.

I thought of how selfless this friend is and how selfish my own family are.

You see, it's when you're truly in deep shit and you need a hand to pull you out, that's when your family / friends true colours show.

bitches.

So my mom just defended her bitchy sister for being a total bitch towards me.

Note to self: When I have children, I WILL NOT be like my parents.

You're supposed to defend your kid and not go all ape shit on him.

Cannot wait to leave this hellhole filled with hypocrisy. Neck-deep full on bullshit.

BTW, they're drinking now all drunk while telling each other how they're so much better than their cousins. Wow. You fucking drunkards. I'd wish they'd have some liver disease but I ain't that low. One message though, fuck off!

Live A Good Life

"Live a good life. If there are gods and they are just, then they will not care how devout you have been, but will welcome you based on the virtues you have lived by. If there are gods, but unjust, then you should not want to worship them. If there are no gods, then you will be gone, but will have lived a noble life that will live on in the memories of your loved ones."
— Marcus Aurelius

what's happening in egypt (malaysia?)

My personal belief is that politicians are all corrupt, but marry that with religion and you are asking for trouble.

trust

So apparently my mom doesn't trust me anymore. Fuck that shit. Honestly, I don't blame her. I blame the people around her (read: sisters).

Fucking group of people who think they're better than the rest just because they're in the same 'group'. Fuck you. You think this is high school?

I am losing my faith. I blame you guys.

I have lost my respect for you guys. Call me whatever you want. I honestly do not give a shit about what you think of me, you bunch of lousy ugly and fat hypocrites.

I still believe in karma though. Just you wait karma bites you in the ass. Hard.

I hope you guys can will just leave me alone. I have never directly interfered with your personal life. Why mess with mine? Is it because your lives are so dull you find the joy in badmouthing, pissing, spitting other peoples lives off?

Fuck you and you and you and you.

choose.

I choose to be happy.