So like I am getting married next Saturday.
I am super stressed out. Especially in terms of financial matters. I have so much to pay off, with the new apartment, renovation, study loans et cetera.
So last Wednesday, stress was so bad I did something I wouldn't usually do. I asked to borrow money.
I first called my mom, negative. I think nowadays she'd rather be spending money on making other people happy ie. her sisters and their children. I was sad but I know I can't do much. Told her I'd find some other sources. She just kept quiet. Not even offering other options. Yes, that's my mom.
Texted 3 close cousins. Told them I'd pay them back as soon as the wedding's over. BTW, these are close cousins who I have personally helped a lot, financially and effortlessly. They all said they cannot. Didn't even try to squeeze a couple of hundred of bucks. Well, maybe one did.
Finally, I texted a high-school friend. We do not meet that often but as soon as he got my text, his immediate reply was "When do you need it? Gimme your bank account number". NO FUCKING QUESTIONS ASKED. He's not rich, mind you. Just had a baby himself. Immediately I broke down and cried. In the office.
I thought of how selfless this friend is and how selfish my own family are.
You see, it's when you're truly in deep shit and you need a hand to pull you out, that's when your family / friends true colours show.
I am super stressed out. Especially in terms of financial matters. I have so much to pay off, with the new apartment, renovation, study loans et cetera.
So last Wednesday, stress was so bad I did something I wouldn't usually do. I asked to borrow money.
I first called my mom, negative. I think nowadays she'd rather be spending money on making other people happy ie. her sisters and their children. I was sad but I know I can't do much. Told her I'd find some other sources. She just kept quiet. Not even offering other options. Yes, that's my mom.
Texted 3 close cousins. Told them I'd pay them back as soon as the wedding's over. BTW, these are close cousins who I have personally helped a lot, financially and effortlessly. They all said they cannot. Didn't even try to squeeze a couple of hundred of bucks. Well, maybe one did.
Finally, I texted a high-school friend. We do not meet that often but as soon as he got my text, his immediate reply was "When do you need it? Gimme your bank account number". NO FUCKING QUESTIONS ASKED. He's not rich, mind you. Just had a baby himself. Immediately I broke down and cried. In the office.
I thought of how selfless this friend is and how selfish my own family are.
You see, it's when you're truly in deep shit and you need a hand to pull you out, that's when your family / friends true colours show.
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